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its all good
- By keey
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Thu 12 Jun 2008 23:01
i should be happy that my dads ok after his operation even happier that my mum is going to see a counsellor even more happy that the first year of uni is done! so why do i feel like am dying inside! am so shattered cried for hours am exguasted and even taken off and went to chill out for a meal and a chat and out again yet i feel like i need to just sobb my heart out, i'm knew at all this care thing its hard! like being torn in between two places what do you do look after yourself or look after everyone around you, even out i was hiding my true feelings and found myself drinking rather fast and worrying the worrying is the worst its like having no control over you emotions or feelings am lost without uni! its the first day off and i have to get a job and carry on careering! am so lost am so not ready for this and have to go and see them Sunday! am so tired i wanna sleep but so streesed out and lost am still awake!
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- By EL
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Re: its all good
Thu 12 Jun 2008 23:48I think you have depression, sound like im stating the obvious i know but it is what it is. We all feel lost and bewildered at times but somehow always seem to bounce back purely because we have to. Our brain can only take so much and at times overloads, its human nature im affraid. The most inportant thing for you to remember is you are not alone in your dispare. We all go through it at some stage so dont think you are going cuckcoo. When you become a carer the first emotion to deal with believe it or not is bereavement, which pretty much sounds like what your feeling, its all linked, bereavement/depression/exhaustion. You are physically and emotionally drained. Dont lie in bed worrying yourself silly about not being asleep at a reasonable hour, you will fall asleep when your body and brain tells you too. If you want to sob your heart out then do it, its part of recovery. Dont hide your feelings from anyone or you will give the impression that you are fine and dandy when really you need help. You have to try and open up to people otherwise you will crumble, talking on here is a start but you need to confide in family and friends. Start by writing everything down eg what your daily routine is and how it can be changed to give you more time for yourself, any help you get from family and friends and where and who you can ask for more help, you will get through this but you have to remember what it was that got you through it as there will be other times just like this ok, sadly its all part 'n' parcel of living, i know it stinks but all we can do is try. I hope you feel different soon but keep in touch on here wont you. Take care sending you hugs